This is 30

I've contemplated writing this blog a lot. I figured I would go for it.  30 years is a long time. You meet people that make you who you are, you live through things that mold your character, you endure challenges. Or maybe you don't. I did and for me This is 30. This is personal, this is raw, this is real, this is my first 30 years. This is 30, a list of things that have made me who I am at 30, in chronological order, for the most part.

This is 7lbs 8oz at birth, born in Oklahoma City on September 4th 1983

This is getting a baby sister at age 3

This is have my innocence stolen by a daycare worker

This is moving to Oregon at 6

This is the loss of my Grandpa and Uncle within a month of each other

This is moving to Texas at 9

This is always being the shortest and smallest in my class

This is having a cosmetic procedure on my ears at 13 (they stuck out)

This is my parents divorce in 8th grade

This is getting braces in 10th grade

This is teenage girl drama

This is being accepted to TCU

This is first love heartbreak

This is my 2 half brothers being born

This is finding the love of my life and knowing it immediately

This is my first real job making $36,500

This is getting engaged on the empty lot where our home would be

This is my wedding day 

This is the loss of an addict Uncle

This is a career change and being the breadwinner

This is finding God

This is the birth of my first son

This is becoming a Stay at Home Mom

This is moving back to Houston

This is the birth of my second son

This is overcoming postpartum depression

This is a C section scar, a flabby tummy, and stretch marks

This is an imperfect body my husband thinks is perfect

This is learning to love myself again

This is hating myself for not loving myself

This is me questioning myself as a mother daily

This is seeing God in my life everyday

This is personal

This is Me

This is 30

This is 30, this was not easy to post